"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us....(Dickens)". This quote describes my life for the past about three months through going through a friendship bust, suicidal thoughts, new friends and being admitted to a mental hospital. It all started back summer after ninth grade when my Mom decided I was going through bad times in the midst of my teenage years, just thinking it was normal I was feeling like total shit all the time and came close enough to thinking about suicide and how I was going to end my bitter life at the time. It was all just me thinking there was regular teenage stuff going on when actually I was super depressed, which I didn't get to until previously which was a storm of crying, thinking about dying and just the life of Chris Kyle going on. Then the beginning blew over and I met one of the most narcissistic people in the world that you could ever meet man it felt as if I was living my worst nightmare while wanting them to give me something in life, like love or their total attention as they were juggling their own life, whilst giving me rides to literally everywhere because honestly I am BROKE and have no car but other than that shit went down and it was a roller coaster that was only going down honestly. The suicidal thoughts for me, I thought were very normal, but apparently people at all shouldn't be having them as when I expressed the thought of killing myself to people it escalated to being admitted into a mental hospital where I learned tons of lessons as well as met many different people in different life stages along with different diagnoses. My diagnosis in which I embrace and live with daily is Bipolar Disorder with possibly being on the spectrum. But going on with the story of being in a mental hospital, it was eventful as I learned many new things about how to cope with what is going to go on in my world as well as dealing with my diagnosis. This blog will be about the story of me and being "16 and changed", changed for the better and for the worst of times. The picture below is also great like me so I decided to add it.
8 Comments
|
Chris kyleA "different" 11th grader who enjoys reading, writing and being with friends. A writer of reviews for http://readerviewskids.com/ ArchivesCategories |